Tuesday, October 14, 2014
They say "I'm missing out."
My Instagram is entirely full of my little person and husband.
And my bedtime is no later then 9:30 and 10:00 at the latest if I'm trying to catch up on something.
My definition of fun is family trips to the farm or park.
And the greatest pieces of art I carry are scribblings from a almost two year old and thoughtful words from a Beloved.
Missing out on opportunities, college, having a life, being successful, traveling the world, Having fun, partying, getting a great career and making a substantial amount of money.
But you know what? Maybe I never wanted to go to college?
Maybe I wanted a family to travel the world with?
Maybe my definition of fun is spending time with a family I call my own.
Maybe my definition of partying is having a tea party with a very special girl.
And just maybe my goal in life isn't to make a substantial amount of money but instead to seek first The Kingdom of God and let Him apply everything else in my life.
Did they ever think about that?
I have no need or desire to cross off every country as places I lived or visited before I turn thirty. Even though that would be pretty cool.
I have no desire for a huge house, nice car and everything a great career offers. I don't need that.
Because my number one goal in life is to serve, minister and to bring joy to others.
To lay down my life as a living sacrifice and serve the One who gladly laid down His life for me.
A girl who was helpless.
And for me, what better way to do that then to marry a man and raise little humans.
To be in a place where my life is never about me and my will is never mine but instead it's over there changing diapers and continuing to choose joy in stressful situations.
To live with a man that doesn't fill my every need and isn't meant to however, I serve him with everything I am anyways.
My life.. It's hard, stressful but Oh so worth it! Because even though my life isn't about me Jesus never fails to favor me and pour blessings over me.
Because when we're all about Jesus and when we do things for His glory and not our own. He really makes it about us.
If anyone were to ask me why I married so young and quickly became a mom. My answer would certainly be this:
"Being a wife and mom has not only been my life dream, it's also my calling in life. A calling to be needed, to minister, to teach, to serve, to raise and to choose others before myself."
And in this place of giving there is really nothing more fulfilling here on earth then to be a mom. I never wanted to live life for me first because I have found in this life journey that a life is more beautiful when you give it away.
I'm not missing out, but instead I have gained so much more then living any other life in this world.
Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her.