My word for 2015.

  

 It was the other night when I was laying in bed debating if I even wanted to fall asleep knowing my sweet Liya would be up any second now wanting her feeding and millionth diaper change of the day.

I was thinking about the year of 2014 and how it went by fast. I was reflecting on it which got me thinking about the year of 2015.

I don't do New years resolutions. I'm a huge fan of "today" resolutions however, I do have a word for every year and my word for this year I feel like I need to explain it every time I say it.

As I was laying there I happened to ask God what my word for 2015 was?

I honestly was expecting a awesome word that everyone else seemed to be getting like "Fearlessness" or something but what The Lord had said caught me by surprise.

"Your word for this year Heather is "Weakness". 

Saay what? Weakness? But I hate weakness, I hate being weak, I hate feeling like I'm weak and I hate it when people think I'm weak or I assume people think I'm weak. 

Obviously, I wasn't satisfied with my word at first and demanded something else. But God clearly opened my eyes and heart to this word "Weakness"  as He brought me to this scripture

And He said to me,  “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. -2 Corinthians 12:9

This year in 2014 I hated the word "weakness" because I hated the thought of me being labeled as weak however, God sees our definition of weakness differently then we do. When we think of our weaknesses we think of hopelessness but I believe when God looks at our weaknesses He sees His Son and He sees an opportunity to move mountains in our lives.

This year in 2014 I believe I focused too much on my weaknesses as a negative thing. I stepped down many times, backed off and sat there because I didn't find myself worthy, or enough. I clearly dealt with some identity crisis in the year of 2014 and listened to the wrong crowed a.k.a stupid devil! 

And because of that I can't help but wonder if I missed out? On miracle opportunities. Just because I thought I wasn't good enough or skilled enough to pray over a certain individual. Boy was I fooled.

Until now, I've always thought I was horrible at praying.. Sounds silly? I know! I thought my prayers were ineffective and pointless because I never felt Jesus while praying or The power of the Holy Spirit. I thought they were powerless. So instead of actually praying for people in the ministry team I stood back and just hugged and loved on the people while they were being prayed over by all of the amazing prayer warriors. 

I feel the winds of change moving closer towards me. And they're bringing me off my feet. This year of 2015 my word is "Weakness" This year I will be focusing on my weaknesses and realizing that is where He is strong! So therefore they're not my weaknesses but they're opportunities for Jesus to use His perfect power in me. YAY!

Do you have a word or new years resolutions for 2015? I'd love to hear them and get inspired. :)

I am His Own.

God has recently revealed to my heart that I often care too much about what people think.. And Leon has mentioned millions of times about how I need to just let what people "say to me" and "about me" go in one ear and out the other. Why is this so hard for me to let go? Am I still a slave to people? I have no desire to be and yet every time someone speaks an opinion of me I receive it with both arms, dwell on it, over think about it and often cry.

Why is it so hard for me to shut my mind up and remind myself who I really am in Christ?! A warrior, a daughter, a Princess? One who's worth is far above rubies? Why is it so hard sometimes to believe that about myself? Possibly because I'm still so focused on my works and not focused of what He did to give me His identity?

Honestly, how dare I think badly of myself when Heaven went bankrupt to bring me back into the presence of my Father.

Todd White (My Spiritual hero!) Speaks so amazingly and beautifully about how we need to really know our identity in Christ. He talks often about how he is not out of his mind but out of the mind of everyone else because He really only cares about what Jesus thinks of Him. I so long to be out of the mind of everyone. To be free from that.

I'm so done with the lies of the enemy. Telling me I'm not good enough, that I'm an orphan and that I'm not loved or qualified to do the impossible. I'm  so done with the enemy convincing me that I'm not being heard,  seen, and pursued. When the truth is My Father does see me, He knows me, He hears me and above all He loves me with a love that even I can't describe. I want to know who I am in Christ and above that I want to live who I am in Christ! I don't just want to know but I want to walk with that identity following me everywhere I go so that when people see me they will want what I have. The Most amazing King.

If you have been struggling with identity like I have and you need a reminder of who you really are. I deeply encourage you to get lost into this song and claim your identity in Christ. It's time to take back what the enemy has stolen. :)

                                                                                We are fearless.

We are whole.

We are His Own.

We are no longer blind.

He set us free.

We are not orphans.

We're alive

We are all that He says we are! =D

A new year to dream bigger.

Tomorrow I'll be celebrating my 23rd Birthday with my two loves.  I have been counting the days and I'm so so excited. Even better my husband has off that day, coincidence?  I like to call it a pretty awesome Birthday gift from Jesus.

I have been thinking and praying about this new year and season in my life. And I really felt the Lord lay on my heart and soul last week  that He wants me to  go after the things that will take the most faith for me to do and go for.

He told me that I don't need money or things to accomplish them but only Him and I have Him.

I'm going to be honest and say that I am a girl with so many dreams. I have so many things I want to do and accomplish and I've let fear get in the way.

Fear of my plans not turning out or not having the money, and fear of me not being ready.

But this year and the years to come I'm so done with letting the spirit of fear effect my dreams. God didn't give me the spirit of fear, but of power and love and a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7)

I have such a heart to encourage. In fact  that's one of the reasons I started blogging. But I want to encourage in so many more ways then blogging. I want to do it through my music, books, and more in person.

I want to get my business officially started so that I can remain a stay at home mama for all of my children.  I'd really like to start a mommy group.   I believe that won't only benefit other children but also my girl as well and me.

But mostly. I want people to see Jesus in me to a new level.. I'm done with people only knowing that I'm a Christian because I say that I am and because I post things on facebook. I want my walk to be so much more powerful then my talk. I want God to use me to shine His light, His power and His love on His children and use me just as He used His disciples many years ago.

 This year is the year for me to be a fearless dreamer. To just go after what God has called me to do and go after my dreams.

God wants us to go after the dreams that take the most faith to do because I believe those ones are His favorite.. It's a scary journey for us (particularly me) but I think it's fun for Him because He knows what's going to happen in the end and the impact it will make. He also loves to see us wowed by His awesomeness.. We don't give Him many opportunities to show Himself and if we did I really believe all of our dreams would be fulfilled because  Jesus has plans that will prosper us and give us hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

I'm ready. I'm ready to be a fearless dreamer. To be unstoppable and not  letting things and even people get in the way. I believe our dreams and passions are on our hearts for a reason. A reason that's meant to impact the world and show the Love of Jesus. God wants us to Dream big and be a fearless one that doesn't use excuses.  The enemy just won't know what to do with you then.

I'm so excited to start this new year with a mission as I turn 23. To live the rest of my life as a fearless big dreamer who accomplishes everything she does with God's help and guidance
 (Psalm 1:3)

I think it's about time I walk on some water folks. And this year is a perfect year to start.